Coffeebreakgal

Todays the day I finally decided I needed an outlet for my head and unfortunately for you guys and girls its here!

Little bit about me, I’m a mother of two, a partner of 19 years, a career woman, we have two dogs. I have a busy life with no time for myself but this is now my time and my head space.

Life’s never been easy and it makes me wonder is that because of me or is it the same for everyone else? There are so many different people out there in the world and it makes me wonder where I actually fit in. This also makes me question are there other women who supposedly seem to have it all together, out there feeling the same?

If so do they also need to know that I’m here feeling the same and that they are not alone?

So while I’m sat her on my coffee break I though why not ask the questions that are burning into my brain.

Is life meant to be this hard, we run around getting the children ready, throwing on the cleanest outfit we have to hand, getting ready for the day ahead. Yet social media and films portray a life of effortless mornings, children that don’t cry and scream at the first sign of a tooth brush or hair brush. Everyone immaculately turned out who all have time to sit and eat together (while I’m chuffing on a cigarette, sipping my coffee and eating a banana on the balcony all while my puppy tries his best to ruin my suit by jumping up me with dirty paws)

Get up earlier I hear everyone say, well yes in an ideal world that would happen however my children also have other ideas and are on their own time when it comes to getting ready (I’ve never known another single child like my daughter who can drag out eating two slices of toast for over an hour, shes 8 by the way).

Turns out there is no pexel to imitate my crazy mornings so here’s one above of the perfect mornings the world of social media and films portray that I was talking about, hahahaha.

So this has got me thinking, surely it not just me who is scraping it all together and surviving on a shoe string of energy and sanity and if this is so, why are we so scared to tell the world the real us? It doesn’t make us bad women or parents its just life.

But and this is where the big but comes in, Can we change it? can we have those perfect effortless mornings, can we leave the house relaxed and do the school run at a easy pace rather than speed walking while trying to get the children to keep up.

Can we change? or rather can I change?……………………………….

You see this is not the only thing I wonder about life and as the days progress you will see exactly what I mean. We all have so much going on do we really have time to see friends and be open about our lives? Do we trust people enough to open up? I want to change these things for myself and in turn see if this changes: A, my outlook on life and B, my actual physical life.

To start this all off I will be blogging on here my thoughts and events of my days. Hopefully some of this you will be able to relate to alternatively I find that my life is super crazy and I’m alone in this.

I’m hoping to make this a daily blog ideally on my coffee break at work as this seems to be the only time I get to myself. This is my first time blogging (if I’ve not already said that) so I will either be really good at it and keep it up to date or I will be really crap and this will die a death by the end of the week.