It’s Monday and I feel so anxious my stomach is in knots. I feel sick, sweaty and weak. I’m tired so so so tired but yet I’ve just had two days off work. On an upside little miss was up and getting ready on time and we had no dramas. Monday is breakfast club day and she has to be in for 7.45am as I have work at 8am. I like these days as it means I get to drop her off without the distraction of her friends, it also means I don’t have to dodge the children and mums on their way to school as I’m trying my best to get to work on time.
I walked into 53 emails, a pile of invoices and a list as long as my arm to get through today. Oh I just love Monday’s!
Lots of people write about this subject. I don’t have anything bad to say our school mums aren’t nasty in anyway, they’re all actually quite nice.
The thing is though I just don’t fit in!
We have the perfect stay at home mums who make everything from scratch and only supply organic in the children’s lunch boxes. Who drop their children off chatting away to their friends and then go off into town for coffee.
Then we have the stay at home mums that meet up chat amongst them selves then head off to one of their houses for a catch up.
There are the working mums who get to fit there work around school so can make the drop off and pick ups. They can’t stop to speak unless you catch them at collection.
The young mums, the geriatric mums, the hippy mums, the immaculate mums, the CBA mums, the hot mums, the mumsy mums, the sporty mums that run off to the gym as soon as the drop off is completed.
I don’t fit into any of these, We usually make the school run with 3 minutes to spare so I don’t get stuck uncomfortably in the corner with no one to talk to. I think I know why this is. I turn up at the school ready for work suited and booted ready to go. I have a resting bi@&h face (I don’t know why but I have always had this). The only mums that say hello are the mums from work but I know they’re only being polite as I’m their senior Manager and they have to face me at work.
I do come across as unapproachable. Which I don’t know how to change. And even if I do change I don’t have time to stop and chat at drop off and I only do the pick up on a Friday.
So how do I change? I don’t want to change who I am because to be honest I like the person I am.
It would be nice to fit in, I wonder how many of those other mums at the school gate feel the same?
Coffeebreakgal 