Its Tuesday and I’m a bit out of sync now from writing over the weekend so your getting my posts a day late otherwise I will be bombarding with multiple posts.
This morning was so smooth, get up get ready, there were no dramas. Work is quite nice this morning (shouldn’t speak too soon). We we’re all happy to leave the house and start our day (although my daughter shouted all the way to school “save me, save me, I don’t want to go to school today” hahaha). She’s a funny little thing.
So who likes music? I think we all do, some more than others I suppose.
Personally I love music but there are only certain moods, times, music that I can play and listen too. Otherwise it can effect my mood (I’m making myself out to sound like a right nutcase now)
What’s your favorite music?
I like all different genres, from hip hop, pop, classical, 80’s, 60’s the list goes on. My favorite at the moment has to be 80’s and pop. Songs can remind me of specific people, times, dates, places and events. I find music therapeutic and there are some significant songs that have helped me over the years especially over lockdown.
There was something huge that happened for me over lockdown (actually quite a few things). I opened up about something that happened in my past which started off a chain of events. Unfortunately I’m not able to go into detail about this at the moment. Anyway there were a number of factors that caused this to happen but one factor was a song that I started listening too.
Now I’ve already established that I’m a major over thinker. So when it comes to songs I can be the same with lyrics. I had watched a documentary on Princess Dianna a while a go and there was a song that got stuck in my head. I downloaded that song and found myself listening to it every morning. The song was Bird set free by Sia. As I listened to those lyrics every morning it triggered something inside of me.
Some of the lyrics in the song that did it for me were:
Clipped wings, I was a broken thing
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not sing
You would wind me down
I struggled on the ground, oh
So lost, the line had been crossed
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not talk
You held me down
But there’s a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive, oh
Yes, there’s a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight,
And I don’t care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
No, I don’t care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I’ll shout it out like a bird set free
Now I fly, hit the high notes
I have a voice, have a voice, hear me roar tonight
You held me down
But I fought back loud,
And so I did, I’ve shouted it out, I’ve fought back and I will get my day, my justice, and even if I don’t for some reason, I’ve released it, its no longer bottled up, eating away at me. The person involved knows I’m no longer going to stay silent like I have for the last 25 years. They no longer have that hold on me and as I move on to the last phase of this event I can finally relax knowing I’ve had my say already, people are aware and can make their own decisions. I have already done what I set out to do once I’d made my mind up to speak out and that was simply just to tell my side.
My family are down to visit soon and I so can’t wait to get the music on and be dancing with them (with maybe a few rums too). Oooooh and I have my dance class tonight, yay.
Coffeebreakgal 