So I thought this blogging thing was supposed to be easy! Well could have fooled me I literally have no idea what I’m doing.
Anyway this morning I decided I was going to create a blog as you will have seen from my home page.
This morning was the same as many, get up late, rush and race my daughter in to getting dressed and brushing teeth, no time for a shower (which makes me think, how often does everyone else shower? every morning, every evening, every other day?) Make daughters marmite on toast which is the only breakfast she will eat now and we’re on the last two slices of bread so cue meltdown as she doesn’t like the end pieces (crusts we call them)
I leave her to eat her breakfast while I hurriedly scoff a banana and smoke a cigarette at the same time out side on the balcony while my puppy tries to attack me. I move on to making the packed lunches while all the time my daughter is nibbling on her toast, I swear she tries her best to make it last as long as possible. We then go through the rigmarole of hair brushing (I think my neighbor believes I’m torturing her at this point) all while still nibbling on her toast and trying to video chat her best friend from school.
Two minutes before leaving and after asking at least 30 times she still doesnt have her socks and shoes on, still sat there nibbling on toast. She decides that she cant find her shoes and doesn’t know where she took them off yesterday. (Seriously WTF where do these shoes hide)
Anyway this all gets resolved in a mass of stomping and tears (from said daughter not me although I feel like it and it is only 8.30am) and we’re power walking up the hill off to school.
I do the dutiful drop and run and head back down the hill to work. I’m here and I start my day in the same routine however today was different, My head wasn’t so cloudy and while I took my coffee break I took 15 minutes to write down my thoughts and rationalise them. This is a turning point for me, you see for the last few months of returning to work after lock down my head has been in a very dark place. While I do not want to go into too much detail about this at the moment lets just say that lock down gave my head too much time to think and a lot of this was not good. Returning to work caused me a lot of anxiety and not around Covid-19 more my personal life.
So later today I will finish work, go home, head off to fat club (apologies to anyone who finds that statement offensive) and then back home to probably do nothing but wallow in my own self pity.
I need to go for now but will update you all later.
Coffeebreakgal 
You are doing fab x x
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